Monday, October 20, 2008

Travelling Blind


Sometimes in life we just don’t have the answer. We’d like to think that everything is controllable, that we can protect ourselves from loss and suffering, but it’s just not possible. There are no pat answers to most of the big questions in life, people don’t behave the way we expect them to and, despite our best efforts, things don’t necessarily work out the way we planned. We can have our theories about the way things are, but sooner or later an exception will come along to prove the rule. So what’s a girl to do?

According to Jean Houston, author of The Search For The Beloved, “How do you take your woundings, your betrayals, your ‘holes’ and make yourself holy instead of battered? This process involves the dramatic remythologising of yourself and your life … the gaining of a very different perspective.”

Essentially, what we need to do is look for meaning, even when there may be no such thing as an answer. We might not be able to solve the problem, but we can find meaning in it. Sometimes what crops up may be a clue to a pattern of behaviour that we tend to repeat or that we encounter in others. As humans there’s a childlike – and very persistent – desire in us to know the reasons why things happen in our lives and, as hard as we try to reason things out, we remain very uncomfortable with any degree of uncertainty.

I remember being told by a specialist when I was struggling to overcome chronic fatigue that one of the biggest factors affecting recovery was the amount of uncertainty in patients’ lives. It seems we can deal with anything if it’s a known quantity, but it’s uncertainty that drives the stress levels up and drives us all mad in the process. That same factor is at work when we feel relieved when we have a diagnosis of illness, however good or bad – it’s the not knowing that’s the most difficult for us.

Sadly, though, life does not tend to conspire with our ideal world where certainty rules and nothing catches us by surprise. As the author of The Re-Enchantment Of Everyday Life, Thomas Moore, puts it, “It is in the nature of things to be drawn to the very experiences that will spoil our innocence, transform our lives and give us necessary complexity and depth.”

To become deeper, more soulful people – and to learn to cope with life in a way that doesn’t leave us looking like we have our fingers plugged into a light socket – we have to befriend the great mystery. We have to learn to be flexible and to embrace change as firmly and joyfully as we hold our own plans. We need to learn to tell ourselves a new story about what change and uncertainty mean in our lives.

I take my inspiration from my friend Miranda’s cat. Not only does he have a fabulous name – Great – but he ambles through life in his own happy way and is never disturbed by a last-minute change of plans. He’ll be heading out the door, but if you disturb his outward bound trajectory by picking him up, he’ll just enjoy the cuddle. Sometimes his seemingly purposeful walk towards the food bowl is interrupted by the discovery of a particularly warm bit of floor surface that captures his attention for a quick nap. It’s a pleasure – and an education – to watch him joyfully accept anything that appears in his life, whether he planned it or not.

While your circumstances may not be as simple as the feline life, you can learn to adopt a more cat-like appreciation of the moment, rather than letting your mind hang out in a future that may never happen or a past that you cannot change. Jack Canfield, who co-wrote the ultra-successful Chicken Soup For The Soul series, tells a great story about learning to let go of the need to know how things will turn out. As he points out, when you drive at night you can only ever see a couple of hundred yards ahead of you, but you can drive right across the country that way. You don’t need to be able to see the entire route to be able to make the journey. Martin Luther King Jr spoke on that theme too, when he said “Take the first step. You don’t have to see the whole staircase to take the first step.”

This week, let’s all give up trying to figure things out and just take them as they come. If there’s a project you want to get off the ground, try taking some steps without having the whole plan. Make some space in your life to be seduced by the pleasure of the moment. If you have a problem that’s bothering you, try looking for meaning instead of trying to solve it. What might that issue be telling you about a recurring theme in your life? What if you stopped worrying about it and relaxed long enough to let a solution emerge? Go and do something completely different – and preferably slightly silly – and then come back and see if you see the situation in a new light. Take a holiday from everyone else’s problems as well. Let them sort themselves out – you’re having a week off. Relax and remember that no-one ever has all the answers … and if you think you do, you’re kidding yourself!

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